Wow eye opener for me.
Race: team started out not so well way back and yeah most of the mile was weaving around people, next i lead the next 1k which was part of our plan. except it was suppose to be a mile. idk. i didnt run well. i havent ran "fast" in 3 years. i dislike this feeling. There's only so much Coach and the team can do for me. I just lack the confidence that i need and the mental ability to be and go fast. idk I'm really hard on myself. its just hard i need more support. But most importantly i need to believe in myself. I've invested too much to not be as fast as i should be. I've been putting in some thoughts and i need to fix these areas.
1. Eat Healthier. I am going to limit myself on fast food and unhealthy treats and substitute them for healthier options.
2. Mentaly becoming stronger and a better person, idk how but i have the internet.
3. Accept defeat and move on, I've never won a race, still want to.
4. be a better teammate, I want others to improve aswell.
theres probably more idk i cant think right now. I just want to run fast.
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